Naked tightrope walking

Matthew 7:14: But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it.
 

When God said narrow, I didn't know he meant tightrope! Why is walking the straight and narrow so hard? Why do I feel like it's so impossible? On one hand you have crazy all out reckless indulgence, on the other you have crazy all out reckless legalism, and a super wide gap between from there to the rope you are on.

I have heard one preacher say he would rather err on the side of legalism…I would rather err, well thats the trap isn't it? Either way you err, you are going to fall. Now this is the crazy part. As if falling weren't enough. Instead of reaching out a hand to help The legalism side AND the sin side will BOTH judge you while you stumbling around looking for something solid to stand on. Those who called you brother or sister…those who called you friend, they go from welcoming arms to pointing fingers. And there you are left asking where is grace in all of this?! Not just the grace of God but the grace we extend to each other?  Where is the Jesus that forgives?!?!?! Where is the loving father that helps us when we are hurt?  You want to know what I think? God is in the net! WHAT??!?! Yes. The net. The thing that was strategically placed to catch you when you fall. Now I don't know about your life, but I need a net for when I fall, not if ... WHEN. I am a believer. I am Christian. I am forgiven by the blood of Jesus and cling to him as my savior, I Follow the leading of the Holy Spirit, and Love Father God with everything inside of me. That does not stop me from screwing up. I am, after all, human. I make mistakes. Sometimes even on purpose.  Here is where it gets dicey…I am owning my faults, mistakes, and the suff most "holy" people frown upon. Good Grief! I am here to worship and love the Father and if I don't live up to your moral expectations...GOD STILL LOVES ME! I don't need to hide who I am.   That is an old trick. Even Adam fell for it. “I was ashamed because I was naked so I hid” Remember that scene in the Garden? But God called Adam out of hiding. So too, he calls me. My "nudity"is no longer contained. What sort of thing do I think I can hide anyway? God knows I fall, He is the net that catches me when I do. So, this is my journey. My public state of undress. It is imperfect, some parts are ugly, some parts are beautiful,I am not always behaved, but all of it is me. This is my self - exposing myself. I am becoming the type of believer I want to be. A naked one who will do her best to step onto the rope, walk the line, and be GLAD that there is a safety net underneath!